繭居,真的沒有什麼不好                                                                           
終於可以靜下心來好好的做做該做的事                                                                              
終於可以讓每天嘻皮笑臉的面孔回到沒有表情的狀態                                                                            
終於可以讓講不停的嘴巴聽下來休息
                                                                               
回到了一個人的狀態                                                                               
少了身邊圍繞地人、事、物                                                                             
我的生活單純地只剩下「論文」需要完成                                                                             
這是我在日復一日與小鬼搏鬥時最想擁有的時光                                                                             
其實我很能自得其樂                                                                             
所以不用替我擔心,一切都很OK!                                                                               
而且「論文」也是早晚都該做的事,已經拖過了這麼多個寒暑假                                                                              
早點面對早點解脫也是好事一件。

 

我不喜歡的是無止盡的等待                                                                              
等待著你何時可以兌現你的支票                                                                              
等待著你的時間來配合「我的要求」
                                                                              
別畫了大餅給我,卻總是人算不如天算                                                                              
別總是說是說陪我,只是因為我的要求                                                                              
所以我不想撒嬌了                                                                              
這是我越來越消極,不想談論旅遊的原因
                                                                                                                                                              
我能夠把自己照顧得很好,只是還不能控制自己的負面情緒和鑽牛角尖                                                                              
能夠跟學生講很多大道理、能夠體諒你很多                                                                            
但是情感卻無法與理智同步                                                                             
所以我不想講手機了
是誰說電話是聯絡事情的工具,而不是聊天的媒介                                                                              
電話的兩頭,你聽得到的是我想睡、沒精神的聲音                                                                              
但卻看不到從眼睛裡不斷冒出的莫名其妙淚水
                                                                                                      
                                                       
這一陣子的情況倒是很符合這段歌詞呢                                                                               
『我們越來越愛回憶了 是不是因為不敢期待未來呢
 你說世界好像天天在傾塌著 只能彎腰低頭把夢越做越小了』
                                                                                                                                                             
打出來,重新整理自己的思緒,也比較清楚自己在悶什麼                                                                              
當然整篇都是以「我」的觀點去看現在的情況                                                                              
「你」的努力、付出,我都知道                                                                              
只是現在我想任性地跟你說「我」
                                                                               
這封信如果被你看到了,應該又對你造成很大的困擾了吧~
真是可憐的孩子                                                                              
又要煩自己的事、又要煩家裡的事,現在又來一個「噗隆貢」                                                                              
哈!
                                                                                                                                                              
打完去弄早餐吃了...繼續弄渾沌不清的論文
                     

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